My back hurts…

patientlyft i aluminium

Image via Wikipedia

Actually it’s my side.  I tried a patient lift but it didn’t work with Lynn’s wheelchair.  I know one that I would like to get–it’s a modified version of what we used in the hospital–but it’s over $3000 because it’s not provider by our insurance company.  So I lift Lynn myself.  He now weighs 215 lbs.  That’s a lot to lift.  I’m no small person either. I weigh about 180 lbs. which is probably part of the problem.  If I was in shape and lost about 50 lbs., I would have more energy and more flexibility, however; as my doctor explained, losing weight is difficult when you’re under a lot of stress.  My body thinks it needs to store fat so that I’ll have necessary energy to fight off what’s causing the stress.

I also admit I have no will power right now.  To think about counting calories or watching portions is just more than I can face.  I eat to keep up energy and I grab what’s easy.  I try to keep sweets out of the house but I snack on nuts and bars and whatever I can find that I can eat while I work. I’ve looked at weight loss ads but I’m afraid of those plus I have a lot of sensitivities to foods of it’s just too much to think about right now.

I know I also need to exercise.  I sometimes get in a few  minutes of stretching to help my muscle spasms but to even carve out 30 minutes means either reducing sleep time or work time and if I reduce work time, I have to take vacation time and I need to store that up in case he gets sick and goes into the hospital again. What a roller coaster!

I worry though about these spasms I’m having so often from lifting.  I know one day I’ll probably pull something that won’t go back and then what will we do?  I’ll have no one to take care of either of us. Then what?  I have long-term care insurance to cover me but Lynn already had MS when I had the opportunity to get it so he wasn’t qualified.  Just one more thing to leave in God’s hands because I can’t worry about it right now.

For now it’s 11:00 p.m.  I finished working at 10:30 and put a pre-made meal from a friend in the oven for dinner.  Thank the good Lord (and Amelia) for those meals.  I don’t know what I would do without them.  I’ve had some Advil and Lynn’s in his powerchair attached to his peddler for the night. Think I’ll go have something to eat….


About mscaregiverdonna

I am a full-time caregiver for my spouse who has Multiple Sclerosis while I try to work full-time, take care of our home, and handle any number of other functions that used to be shared by the two of us. I'm learning that it's amazing what you can do when you have to and when you have God to send you the resources you need to manage moment by moment.
This entry was posted in Ms Journey, Physical effects and tagged , , , , , . Bookmark the permalink.

4 Responses to My back hurts…

  1. God bless your every fiber. Our love and prayers are with you.
    God bless you and keep you
    The Lord make His face to shine upon you
    And be gracious unto you
    The Lord lift up His countenance upon you
    And give you His peace.

    Teressa & Donald

  2. My message says I posted at 3:16 a.m. on Oct. 4 Actually it’s 11:15 p.m. Oct 3. I wonder why it did that.

  3. Donna says:

    No idea but thank you very much for your encouragement and prayers. Love ya both, Donna

  4. Patrick says:

    You might want to try periodically checking ‘craigslist’? It’s like mining for used durable medical equipment. Once I saw a Hoyer power lift which I know retails for $5,000 being sold for $600. Bottom line is that in many cases family just wants to get rid of stuff. Of course no guarantee anything will be out there but it can be worth your while to look.

    I can tell you for a fact that when I finally joined a gym, Planet Fitness for $10 month, a year ago that I who like you lived with back pain for decades have had my first pain free year of MS caregiving in almost 22 years.

    Caregivingly Yours, Patrick

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out /  Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )


Connecting to %s