Hold My Hand

Dear Lord,

I don’t know why you do the things that you do

or why you let happen the things that you choose.

I’ve often doubted your wisdom and resented your ways;

not willing to accept what I was facing that day.

Like when I was a young and my friends turned away,

I was sad and alone and tempted to stray

but you taught me the value if I would obey

and brought me a new friend I have to this day.

I went on through school and a nurse I became

my dreams of my childhood were just not the same

I landed a job that allowed me to grow

in ways that prepared me for what I must know.

The trials of a marriage destined not to succeed

taught me reliance on faith for my everyday needs.

Single parenting was hard and many failures I see

Looking back at my choices and need to be me.

But God was right there standing close by my side

keeping me going and being my guide.

A special needs child and another too free

some hard times, some good times, some just meant to be

Though hardships were many and challenges not few

to loving and caring adults they both grew.

My spouse I did meet through your influence as well

A personal ad I did answer, do tell.

We married but struggled in our attempt to unite

our children and habits and expectations weren’t right.

I prayed we’d find closeness and a true family become

But try as we might that “oneness” didn’t come.

Then much to our sadness MS found its way

into the dynamics of family each day

I asked many times “why us?” and I prayed

for a miracle or something to take it away.

But in your wisdom this hardship worked out to our good

We’re closer and happier than we thought that we could.

So thank you, Lord Jesus, though I don’t understand

I’ll trust you and turn to you, just keep holding my hand.



About mscaregiverdonna

I am a full-time caregiver for my spouse who has Multiple Sclerosis while I try to work full-time, take care of our home, and handle any number of other functions that used to be shared by the two of us. I'm learning that it's amazing what you can do when you have to and when you have God to send you the resources you need to manage moment by moment.
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